I am feeling very frustrated and a little down, tonight. Jim left to drive back to California at 2:30 this morning. I didn't even know he was gone until 4:00 AM when the alarm went off at the time he was supposed to get up. But, he said he couldn't sleep and he might as well get on the road. Apparently I was sleeping so soundly (translate: snoring) that he didn't want to wake me.

It has left me feeling a little weird all day. I didn't get to say good-by and it is still making me sad.

Yes, I get the hidden message and that is probably what is bothering me, too. What if something was to happen to him and I didn't get to say good-by? Would I always feel a little sad, even years later? Is that why we are always told to live each day as if it were your last because you never know...it might be.

Anyway, he made it safely to California, but he too, is feeling down. Something is messed up and I can't put my finger on it. I'm going to have to think on this awhile.

Love you Jimmy.